Former Tusker Project fame star David Major Ogola has been trending for the better part of this week.
The former TPF star was rescued from the streets after photos of him looking desolate went viral on social media.
After dominating conversation this week, netizens went digging through his social media accounts and found an open letter he wrote projecting his depression.
In the letter dated December 23rd 2020 David said he would want to be cremated when he dies.
He went on to apologize to family for being a trouble maker then shares his gratitude for the times they stood by him.
He also talks about his relationship with his mother fallen Kenyan author Margaret Ogola.
“Been gone for a minute. Had some tough realizations to…well..realize that I feel the need to share. Don’t bury me somewhere. Cremate me & scatter my ashes over Lake Naivasha, one of my favorite places, had great times there, and scatter the rest near Ma’s grave. I’m an artist so indulge a quote from one of my favorite Coolie Budz songs: ‘The way you’re going ain’t gon’ get u nowhere. But tomorrow’s another day, tomorrow’s another day. How you’re going ain’t gon’ get u nowhere, So I just want u to be prepared. ‘ On that note let me start with something I feel is as rare these days as kindness, an apology, followed swiftly by my sincere gratitude for it all especially for the times it went unsaid, not shown or worse, unappreciated. Time, distance, circumstance & choice even, have resulted in us growing apart: feel I should begin with family. Have to start with Ma. I am pretty much nothing without my Mother. I owe everything to you, my very existence as a matter of fact. Couldn’t be more sorry for the times I let you down…more than anything for not living up to my potential after everything you sacrificed & you sacrificed a lot. Someone wise said something about how we view sacrifice as loss, as losing something we’re typically so desperate to hold on to for whatever reason, rather than something you’re choosing to give up to benefit someone or the universe at large in some way..And I’ve learned from my Mother & personal experience that the universe responds in kind. So worry not, tenda wema nenda zako.” He wrote in part
He further apologized to his younger siblings for not being there for them.
“Have to apologise to Paulette. Forgive me baby sis for not being the best big bro I could be. You mostly missed out on Pops behaving like a teenager when he was most needed as a husband & a father and for some of it you were too young to fully understand, so one could argue you were mostly unscathed but truth is you experienced his absence too, not to mention you had to grow up mighty fast, dealing with your older siblings’ Daddy issues, Ma’s illness & eventually her passing. I want you to know that you are this family’s miracle, and right up there with Mum is the regard I hold you with. You are our saving grace. You took our youngest under your wing in a tumultuous time, took care of Karla when we couldn’t or wouldn’t after we lost Mum. You are loved & appreciated beyond what words in any language could describe. Thanks for always having my back even when I didn’t deserve it. That by definition should be what family is about…in a perfect world I guess.” He added
In the letter David also called out his father for demanding he cuts his hair. He painted a picture of how his relationship with his father is strained.
“As for Pops, there’s a lot I could say, a lifetime’s worth in fact but I will say this: be there for Jeff. He’s never needed a father more than he does now and you’ve got some making up to do because it all begun with you. Don’t care if he’s a grown man. He lost his way and you, Vivs and I should be the most understanding because we’ve all been to that dark place. You’re only there, only care, when it’s convenient for you, when it suits you. You pulled the same crap with Ma and joined your fam in denying her dying wishes_a direct result of your crap in as much as you didn’t like them. You owed her that. How you gonna deny me seizure meds_which I didn’t need at that point by the way thanks to Laban, Milli& Dr. Oketch_deny me medicine and give me the cold shoulder for days because I won’t cut my hair??? Ma’s been dead a almost a decade now, hell, there was project fame before that and you have a problem with it now??! What, are you still going through puberty or something? Keep the meds, want nothing more from you infact, just be there for Jeff if he allows it. Anyone who doesn’t want to honor my final wishes is welcome not to attend my funeral, life will certainly go on. Never forget the time you collapsed at work and Paul & I dropped everything and hopped on to the next flight, not bus, when we got the call, and footed a hospital bill of just over 100,000 between the 2 of us. We didn’t wait till it was convenient for us,we came running, that’s how Ma raised us. So I personally don’t wanna hear bitching about Jeff’s bill. Substance abuse in this family started from the generation before ours..typically major Daddy issues and losing Ma pushed some of us over the edge and fighting over her remains helped none so judge not lest ye be judged. Save the righteous indignation for someone who doesn’t know you like I do, for someone who hasn’t sat in the freezing cold car while you got wasted, wondering why you brought me out on a school night only to whip my ass some day for missing one day of HOLIDAY CLASSES, whip my ass all the way to the bus stop and keep it up infront of my friends: save it for someone who didn’t witness you mistreat
Ma, mistreat Jeff..watch how “discipline” very easily got to bullying and insults, zero encouragement. Lang’ata was the worst. No wonder the kid was born angry, he couldn’t bake in the oven in peace because Ma wasn’t at peace. Truth hurts. I’m done.” He added
